2 more weeks till finals. another sem will be over real soon. another step closer to work life.

had a short trip with the gang to penang on the 6th-9th this month. had tonnes of fun and gossips. quality time spent. enjoyed.

felt sick last night. better now.

time to rush for the last 2 assignments then head back to pj for awhile. study break after that.

till then. =)

eLaiNe signing off very full.

so many things are changing.

when can it stop?

as we grow older, things are becoming more serious.

no more playing around, fooling around.

its all about responsibilities.

i wanna just stop the time, cause it hurts.

i don't like how things are now, and it is getting worst.

i hate.

eLaiNe signing out hoping time will stop.

"I'm so disappointed in you."

"You're such a disappointment."

thats all i can hear.

but when can i hear this, "I'm so proud of you."

never.

eLaiNe signing off as a failure in life.

i had a nightmare. a very fearful one.

its still in my head. those flashbacks are crucial. they are haunting me.

those words that appeared are going nowhere but to remain in my head.

it makes me feel like avoiding so badly. i no longer feel secure.

whenever i think about it, my eyes will start to tear.

now i know there is no fairytale. its all a lie.

i fell hard this time. i no longer believe in the word 'trust' for i'll be betrayed.

did you know, when you're close to someone;you're hurting someone close too?

no use acting innocent, the world is cruel.

everything can be deceiving.

now i am living in fear. the last and first thing before and after i wake up will be filled with this fucked up thought wish i never had knew about.

i think i'm slowly turning mad in some way. perhaps white hairs will be my evident?

its killing me.

i hate feeling this way.

i just wanna wake up from this dream so badly.

it hurts.

eLaiNe signing off depressed. =(

i have been MIA for quite some time. been busy with assignments and presentations.
however i'm done with 2 presentations so far.

besides world cup is here, therefore more sleepless nights to update myself. pretty interesting. was watching portugal vs spain but left earlier. its 1-o now. spain scored.

anyway i can't really sleep. shall spend some time updating blog as people are complaining. well just a hand full of them. =) well at least i AM updating it now ain't i?

plus it is great to just listen to songs and spent some time to myself. to clear my mind. been kinda messed up recently. confused. its time to find a way out. i really need a ray of light to lead me out. sighs.

but other than that i'm fine. just that i'm having cough for 3 weeks and it is still not recovering. tmr go see doctor. need medicine badly. haha.

i guess thats all for this post.

eLaiNe signing off like this.

hello hello. =)

i'm currently back in kampar. hot day cold night. depends though. haha.

class started and assignments are pouring in like water. only trouble is that we are being separated to different tutorial groups. which mean forming new groupmates.

so far i'm still with the same ppl for 2 subs. 3 more still unknown yet. will see how it goes. individual work is the worst especially when the final year project is out just this morning.

GG.com

so lets get started! but laze around this week first okay? hehe.

eLaiNe signing off hungry.